My Attic..
To every heart there’s a place to where it drifts away.. from the peering eyes of stangers.. and the judgement of those it cares for so great..
Here is my place.. my little “Attic”.. where it doesn’t matter who or what I am.. Here it’s only me..
A girl with a paper & an ink stain..
Screw them all :@ *Updated*
Comments (2)Tomorrow by 9:00 am i’ll be having an Oral Surgery Mid year exam.. I once said that I loved surgery & thought about specializing in it.. but guess what? it sucks! too boring!! they keep on going around in circles! Seriously they make a big deal of nothing! as though extracting a tooth is the most fatal procedure we might do ever!
I know I’m supposed to be studying but I can’t! I ended up giving myself time limits for every chapter I start… Like chapter one.. 1 hour & 30 min.! & i used my bro’s iPod to count down! that’s how desperate I am!
Plus my hormones are dancing around like crazy through my system making me both easily irritated & depressed!! I hate this!
Yesterday was supposed to be the most productive study day.. but hey what happened? I watched an episode of Lipstick Jungle & made one of my friends go.. “what’s gottin into u girl?!!” from my severe depression attack!
I’ll try to catch up on my studying although I do think I’ll end up staying up all night.. re-reading again & again the words.. Bleeding & Fracture!
To u Oral Surgery.. whom I hate today with all my heart! GO TO FREAKING HELL!
Excuse my language people..
BRB again…..
*Update*:
The exam was totally unexpected.. too nice & easy which wasn’t anything close to the reputation it had as a Long-Exam-Subject.. but hey who cares?.. the most important thing is that I knew what I was talking about when answering the two essays & understood the MCQs 
THANK YOU GOD
Dreams…
I always ask myself.. is there a limit for dreams??
not night dreams.. I mean dreams as in hopes for one’s future achievements??
is there a point where one should stop & say.. hey.. I’m going too far!
Can’t one have the sky as his/her limit???
New Years 2009
Its 2009 already .. a whole new year to forward to
I must admit the year 2008 had many disappointments.. sad.. devastating.. happy.. hilarious.. stupid.. hideous.. annoying.. gloomy.. lonely.. light headed moments… all through a year!..
I have a couple of new year’s revolutions.. I hope I stick to them insha2 allah 
This year has to be different.. has to be unique.. I’ll make sure of it! I promise
This year I’ll be a better me
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
Mirror mirror on the wall.. you affect me as you do them all!!
So… I always believed in Reverse Psychology & how it affect ones’ self & others.. I actually use it every once- in- a-while with my parents 
.. it works like a charm! But what I didn’t know is that looks had the same effect on people.. and more on me! by me! lol
Last week me & my friend Sara decided to adapt a new look for the rest of the semester.. we called it the “Dafoor look” or basically the “Nerd look”.. that consists of heavy dark rimed glasses & no makeup except a bit of kohl if our eyes were puffy
So I went out on Friday & got me the nerdiest pair I could find.. and today I wore them to school.. the day began normally.. normal lab session & playing with stainless steel wires till our fingers bled.. then the next lecture came.. it started by me almost snoozing off to my dreamland.. then the doctor said something interesting that caught my attention.. so i woke up! he talked about this technique about restoring teeth & materials used in it.. & he asked a question & said: ” Whoever will answer this question is the one who understands what we’re talking about!”.. I was like yeah right.. I blabbed out some answer I thought was the most acceptable to me logically & he said who said that!!!
I was like :S!! I said that.. then he asked why?… seriously at that moment I was all “why did I open my big mouth”!!.. I answered also the most logical thing I knew.. & to my surprise it was correct!.. I was so WOWed by my own self!!
he asked what my name was.. which I hesitated before telling him.. then he continued the lecture & looked at my direction every now & then.. Bummer.. no more snoozing in the boring parts!!
After the lecture.. my friends came up to me and said way to go.. you impressed him!.. Akeed it’s the GLASSES!!
To be honest I don’t usually do this kinda thing in class.. so I guess it really was the glasses LOL I really should consider wearing them permanently.. specially in exams.. oral exams to be specific lol I still can’t get over the fact that my “Nerd look” technique actually worked
The weirdest thing.. in the end of that lecture.. the doctor gave us some advice for our life as dentists & as people in general.. he said that if one thought about him/herself as worthy & capable then he/she really is.. the key to success is believing in yourself first then depending on what other people think or believe in.. because once that belief is gone.. no one & nothing on earth can change it..
Sooo deeeep I thought.. & what a coincidence for him to talk about it today after my little episode of nerdiness
LOL
Miss..
The word miss is defined in the dictionary as: feel regret or sadness at no longer being able to enjoy the presence of someone/ something/ somewhere.
and I know for sure that there is no calculator in the world.. both virtual or real that may estimate how much miss I feel right now!
It’s a very annoying feeling to have no power on your own feelings.. specially when they are wrong!… I try my best to forget that it’s there.. ignore it basic existence.. ’cause I know if I didn’t do that I’d go mad! literary !
Sometimes I say it’s a blessing to have such feeling.. but the pain & distraction it causes is way more greater than any blessing it might have or be worth of.
I know I’m obsessing about it.. but seriously when a girl has so many responsibilities & so many worries .. she basically drifts away to the other half she deserted for so long!! and it turns out to be a whole other burden of it’s own!!
Ahhh! I MISS YOU!!
:@
Big Girls!
Big girls don’t cry or need or want or crave or whatever it is that young girls do!
It really it torture to feel this way when you can’t do anything at all to make it go away!
Once your an “adult” you should be all the right things! but what if you don’t like doing that?! you like to be yourself! your childish funny spontaneous self!!
Ahhhhhh! I hate this!
My stupid brain should know better do guide those other stupider parts to sanity!
I should & I am loving my Big Adult SINGLE Dafoor Life!! that’s what I’ll keep telling myself till some sense grows in it!
I really should stop hoping! and it happens every single stupid time!!
I hate it :@ :@ :@
50 Things About Me..
Tagged by the one & only Pinkish ♥♥
I’m supposed to list 50 things about me.. & oh boy how hard this was! 50 is truly a big number
let’s begin..
1. I’m a Dental Student.
2. I wish I could be a Maxillofacial Plastic Surgeon.. but since I’m a Saudi Najdi Female who wants to have two adorable kids & a happy family.. I don’t think that’s a suitable choice. so I guess I’ll have to settle on something else.
3. I try my best to be professional.. but my name sometimes makes the task so hard I’m called Dr. FARAH. People tend to smile with it.
4. I love coffee.. but not to the point of addiction.
5. I LOVE coffee mugs.. the sight of them al colorful and cute makes me smile.. I have a huge collection of them.. & I always try not to stop at their aisle at the supermarket.. coz I tend to act childish around them. lol.
6. I love to cook.. it makes me happy to make something tasty from raw materials.
7. I’m a Sushi person.
8. I like coke more than pepsi.
9. I LOVE, ADORE & CRAVE good food.. & I consider it one of the four joys of my life.
10. The four joys of my life are.. Food, Sleep, Money, Internet.
11. I love my family.. but I lack the ability to tell them that.
12. I have this wrecking fear of loosing anyone of them.. that sometimes I wish I would die first to not feel the pain.
13. I’m the eldest child.. and I envy my siblings for getting away with things I would never dream of doing.. even at my age now.
14. I have two brothers and one sister.
15. I’ve just turned 23 last Sat. Dec. 6th.
16. I’m a Sagittarius and I’m a proud one too.
17. I’m Honest.. sometimes too honest that I become rude while not knowing I am.
18. I’m a VERY loyal person.. & I tend to expect at least the same.
19. I detest un-loyal people.. and I loose my respect for them & never trust them ever.
20. I Trust people easily.. hence I get myself into unnecessary troubles.
21. I think & expect the best in people.. & I tend can makeup a million good reasons for an action that may seem bad from someone.
22. I don’t judge people by their looks or behavior.. every person lives his life as he/she wishes as long as it doesn’t involve me it the action.
23. I tend to criticize the people around me to their faces.. if I don’t like this or that.. they’ll be the 1st to know.
24. I’m a giving person.
25. I’m a forgiving person.. but with a limit.. you reach your limit with me.. I shut you out of my life.
26. when I decide a friend isn’t worth my time or feelings.. I make sure she knows that & feels it deep in her heart.
27. I HATE people who play with other people’s feelings.. that’s simply cruel & inhumane.
28. I consider my friends the most important people in my life.. after my family of course.
29. I usually give a wrong 1st impression about me.. people tend to think I’m either a snob or that I’m arrogant.
30. My face is the key to my feelings!! it reveals so much I wish I could paralyze it sometimes!
31. I don’t breakdown infront of anyone I don’t trust.
32. In disasters I tend to either go into denial or do something outrageous!
33. I’ve been through an earthquake when I was 13.. and I was without my family.
31. I get emotional at weddings and I hate it.
32. Opera singers make me cry.
33. I consider concealer, kohl, mascara, blush & lipgloss together as Full makeup!
34. I LOVE dark nail polish on short nails.
35. My favorite color changes with my mood.
36. I love my book mark.. and I freak out if I think I lost it.
37. I love to party, dance & act spontaneously.
38. I DON’T believe in love at first sight!
39. I love technology.. and I think it’s a luxury we should be thankful for.
40. I used to write short stories when I’m board.. but I stopped.
41.I wear glasses since I was 9.
42. I love fall or autumn and I think it’s the most romantic season of the year.
43. I love to surprise the people I care about.. and only once was anyone successful in surprising me.
44. I love to drink hot chocolate while studying.
45. There must be a source of noise around me when I study.. either music or the TV is on.
46. I love to read.. & my taste in books changes according to my mood.
47. when I meet people for the first time.. I look at their teeth!
48. I wish.. I wish.. I wish I could get a dressing room like Carry (Sara Jessica Parker) got in the movie.. Sex and the City! By my own BIG!
49. I wish I could take a trip abroad.. alone!
50. I love vanilla ice-cream.
oh god.. I’m finally done!
I tag Sara.. Laly.. Jaz.. Bassem..
Allah yi3eenikom
